My Priorities Have Changed
Confessions of a yoga teacher trainee
The courage that it took to put the title of this entry on paper would be akin to punching a concrete wall. Anyone that has tried punching a concrete wall knows that it hurts and is almost impossible to do. Well, there it is again, my priorities have changed.
Until the beginning of 2013 my priorities were simply “make as much money as possible at whatever cost, because money and nothing else equals being happy.” That was the mantra by which I lived, yes, I helped people in my law practice, some were grateful, most were not but at what cost? Simply put at the expense of my own happiness. It seemed that I had to be at every person’s beck and call no matter the time of day or condition I was in. My priorities are now “provide for my family while appreciating them, enjoying my children, and making myself happy.”
“Be careful what you water your dreams with. Water them with worry and fear and you will produce weeds that choke the life from your dream. Water them with optimism and solutions and you will cultivate success” Lao Tzu
Tonight my dreams are being watered by the thought that I will spread the light of yoga by teaching it and guiding others in its path. More importantly, I have obtained the support of someone who has guided me through life and didn’t support my decision to teach yoga before. People would ask me if my goal in yoga teacher training was to teach or to enrich my life. My answer would be hesitant,”well…maybe one day I will teach.. blah blah blah.” Now I say it, I WANT TO TEACH YOGA AND IGNITE THE LIGHT OF YOGA IN OTHERS. Yes, self enrichment is cool, but i could invest in workshops and books if thats all I wanted. My priority has changed!
In the words of the Buddha, “Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone; you are the one who gets burned.” Going a step further, holding on to peace and light that you can share with others will burn a hole in your heart that will leave you empty and sad if you don’t share them.
I am happy, my priorities have changed… I am no longer hiding the fact that, I want to teach yoga, I want to enlighten others, I want to make others happy. we live in a time where depression anxiety and the lack of self image are prominent ways of being. my priorities are to help these souls who need the light of the union of all beings, the light of yoga. I am happy… my priorities have changed. I WANT TO TEACH! – Namaste!